I don’t cope well with the continuous nature of glucose data. After prolonged periods of using my FreeStyle Libre, I tend to get a little fatigued and overwhelmed. I know that I’m not getting the most out of my flash monitor, which I pay a pretty penny for. Perhaps I might feel differently if I were not an insulin pumper as well, and the Libre was the only technical device I had to deal with.
Over the last couple of months, I’ve settled into a routine of wearing a FreeStyle Libre sensor for the first two weeks of the month, and then imposing a break which sees me going back to fingersticks.
Mixing up flash monitoring with fingersticks helps to keep things fresh and exciting for me. These little breaks help me to clear my head from the constant flow of data that’s just a scan away. It helps me to re-evaluate my glucose monitoring habits, and whether I am checking my blood sugar out of necessity or simply for the sake of it. It also keeps me from becoming too reliant on the Libre, considering it is costly and not currently subsidised here in Australia.
However, I have also found fingersticks challenging after using the Libre. Over the past year or so, I’ve been learning a lot about my blood sugars and applying some of these observations towards my diabetes decision making. I usually apply a new sensor with the intent of, for example, analysing my overnight line or basal testing my work day mornings. But with diabetes being diabetes, two weeks is simply not enough to complete all of those little tasks I’ve set out to achieve.
Coming off the Libre has felt a bit like driving somewhere south of the river without directions. I’ve often found myself feeling lost in those little problem spots, anxiously trying to keep my head above water with finger sticks. By the time my self imposed break is up, I’m ready for a new sensor.
However at the moment, I find myself in somewhat unchartered territory.
I’m currently in my longest stretch on fingersticks since I first began using the FreeStyle Libre last year. There are two unopened boxes of Libre sensors on my shelf, and I haven’t felt any desire to put them to use in some time.
I don’t feel like I am struggling without it. I’ve applied what I’ve learned and observed. The problem spots are slowly but surely smoothing out, and starting to feel less problematic. I feel…comfortable.
I guess I have always perceived the Libre as a tool to evaluate elements of my diabetes management, rather than a tool to directly make my decisions from every day.
At the moment, I feel like I am where I have wanted to be for a long time.