It’s hard to believe that it’s been five years since I summoned the courage to hit ‘publish’ on my first blog post five years ago. I had absolutely no idea what I was doing at the time, or what kind of purpose this blog would serve. In total honesty, I never thought this would last longer than a week or two.
Yet here I am today, five life changing years later and a great deal wiser.
Writing about diabetes is a lot easier than I once thought. When diabetes is a part of your life 24 hours, 7 days a week, 365 days of the year, there’s no shortage of material to share here. It’s pretty easy to flesh out the tiniest thing. Like that low blood sugar that hit me this afternoon, or the stray test strip that I found on the floor of my hotel room.
Writing about diabetes has also been hard. Moreso than ever during the past year. Life, and taking care of myself definitely comes first and I’ll never apologise for that. But I’d be lying if I said that I don’t have this ever growing feeling of looking behind my back, waiting for someone to get angry at something I’ve shared here. Wondering if what I’ve written is even worth sharing.
I don’t have to be doing exactly what everyone else is doing. I’m still here, blogging, and doing it somewhat old-school, because this is the platform that is…me. Diabetes bloggers have largely migrated to Instagram these days, but at this point in time that’s just not me. Posting my landscapes and Cannoli feels far more natural than posing with my Dexcom, pump or pen.
I don’t have to be here, or anywhere else within the DOC, all the time. It’s easy to feel somewhat obligated to post and participate when there are so many corners within the DOC that are active 24 hours a day. Taking care of myself comes first and foremost. I’ve actually just spent 95% of the post Christmas period logged out of social media. With the exception of Twitter for news on the bushfires here in Australia. I always want my interactions to be fun and not forced. I always want to participate only in those spaces that I feel most comfortable in.
Peer support is truly life changing. I acknowledge just how much privilege I have had in being able to build such a great tribe of people with diabetes around me. I still think about where I would be in my life with diabetes today if I had not found such amazing peer support from the DOC and broader diabetes community. I don’t think I want to know the answer to that question.